Honestly? I still expect people who I care about to do me the courtesy of changing to my side. I guess it's obvious I'm not used to dealing with people.

You know I've been pleasantly surprised about how much I enjoyed connecting to people after years of not caring, but I still have a lot to learn. I might not ever get there, but for now I'm fighting to come to grips with it. I'm not giving up yet, despite the temptation of going back to the safety of being on my own and my doubts about the bit that's supposedly rewarding.