You don't have to be sick to be dying

[beelikej]

I'm weepie. I was planning a big post about how I feel, but it probably sounds more coherent in my head, so I'm just gonna write down the final destiny of my wandering mind's journey. My resolution for days to come is to go back to being cynical. I feel like it's the best option for me as to not be torn apart with feelings and worries about friends and family. I liked myself a lot better when I wasn't so concerned about/with others. It's not meant to sound as dramatic as that; nobody is in any life-danger -including me-, but I just can't handle this whole friend thing. I'm making too big a deal of it and it makes me feel like a loser.

I desperately want to be a happy loner again.

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[beelikej.livejournal.com]

I've been very hormonal, can you tell? But that's not the reason for feeling sad, it just brings out my deep hidden feelings, I think. And it's got nothing to do with the friends, but all the more with me putting too much weight on others. I don't want to be that dependent.

Thanks for understanding. *hugs*

[chemfishee.livejournal.com]

Well, that's what friendship is supposed to be about. It's reciprocal. And yeah...

You're quite welcome. Always here to listen. *hugs*