I think this is called being passive aggresive. Whatever.

So I have been crushing on this girl for a while. I shouldn't, but what can I do; sadly I'm only human. I hate it. Especially since I keep being dissapointed in between getting excited. Maybe my standards are too high. Fuck it. They are my lines. If people cross them, however cute and interesting they are, however infatuated I am, I need to be honest to myself. Do not want. But I do not want to fight either. I'm gonna avoid the issue and hope I will get over it. In the mean time I will be grumpy. Deal with it.

There is a reason I will be happily alone for the rest of my life.

"Would it be all right
If we just sat and talked for a little while
If in exchange for your time
I give you this smile?"

"That's okay
As long as you can make a promise
Not to break my little heart
Or leave me all alone in the summer."