Dare to be different and learn to be lonely

This weekend I'm cleaning up the final crates of stuff that I stored for the renovation of my apartment in 2021 (yes, two years ago) and I finally found my naughty J3 papercut art that went missing! I have been so worried that it had ended up in between all the stuff I cleared out (and that it might have shocked some innocent eyes, eep!) Over the past few months I had frantically checked boxes, closets and cupboards, but no such luck until now, literally the final crate. I guess my effort to put it away safely was succesful after all, haha.

Anyway, the guys are back on their top-spot on the wall in my guestroom, I'm so relieved and happy!

When I dove back into the archives of my LiveJournal and Dreamwidth to share a link to the artpost, I discovered I made it ten years ago almost to the day and it had been my first NC17 rated paperpiece:-)
For those who want to reminisce or feast their eyes for the first time, here's the very much NSFW J3 papercut sex scene [LJ

If you'd rather have some foreplay first or prefer your smut in written form, check out the full BigBang post with 'regular' digital G-rated artwork which includes an updated link to the fic: The Premises Are These (You and Me and Him) by minchout <3 [LJ]

J.

X-posted to https://beelikej.livejournal.com/580978.html

A quick, short post before I change my mind again;) At the end of last year, I had some not so fun encounters in fandom and it's been messing with my head. I decided not to post about it, which is very hard to do, but I think it's better for my state of mind. Hope to be up for organizing another round in the quicky_bang soonish.

The (third) COVID lockdown over here has been extended for another month and includes a curfew. I'm glad I can continue to work from home and visit my mom once a week, but that's the only person I see - from the approved 1.5m distance of course. I MISS HUGGS. Our weekly dinners are now sleepovers, as I am not allowed to cycle home after 21:00 and we bingewatch The Good Wife until midnight:)

Am struggling with food; making dinners for myself is rough and I've been unable to get back on a somewhat normal snack schedule. I have managed to create a set of exercises to at least get some movement at home, but it's all very minimal as my mindset is not ideal. I do get some satisfaction from my still very awesome job and I've been reading, so not everything is bad. I've have updated my readinglist [DW] with new books, and there are more on their way, yay! Hope they will continue to help take my mind off the pandemic blues...

Will be arting this weekend for spn_meanttobe! Posting starts tomorrow and continues all month; we'll see when I'm happy with the result and ready to post;)


J.

P.S. Am slowly finding joy in fanfic again: read a wonderful story yesterday, highly recommended: The Beat of Our Noisy Hearts by cleflink - In a world where heartbreak is a literal condition, it's Jared's job to sew, fill and patch the physical wounds left in people's hearts by lost loves, misunderstandings and betrayals. Also has beautiful artwork by petite-madam!
J2 | AU | Magic Realism | Words: 47,890 | Rated: E (Explicit) / NC-17

Oooh, I found treats at spnspringfling that are very relevant to my interests. I'm always so happy to discover (new?) fellow lovers of my favorite pairings in this fandom. I'm gonna keep an eye on these fics until it is revealed who wrote these beauties so I can smother them with hugs and kisses:)

Symbiosis
Pairing: John/Dean | Rating: E (aka NC-17;) | Warnings/Enticements: panty kink, slight feminization
Delicious: sweet anticipation after a hunt; how will John react to Dean's little experiment?

It's Cold Outside The Covers
Pairing: Jensen/Jared/Danneel | Rating: NC-17 (I'd say R) | Warnings/Enticements: nipples!
Snoozing and comfort snuggling turning into nibbling and more. Omnomnom.

What’s In A Name?
Pairing: Jensen/JDM | Rating: R | Warnings/Enticements: angst, amnesia, and schmoop
Jensen has a thing about pet names. He doesn’t like them. Never has. Until Jeff.
- "Sweetheart." Need I say more. Also: in space. This.Is.Everything.

*bounces* I had TWO of my requests in the Spring 2016 round of spn_masquerade filled!
I got glorious J3 art made by dephigravity for my prompt of fanboys Jensen and Jared ending up in their idol JDM's hotelroom: Fan Service So very NC-17 and NSFW \o/

I also received a PWP fic: How to Manage a Skittish Jensen by loracine, based on The anal hook always makes Jensen tense up, but having the privilege of suckling on Jared's cock offers comfort and distraction. J2 | NC-17 | 1181 words | D/s anal play *shivers with delight*

To recommend another fic that rocked my world, I made fanart myself:) Because this Jeff/Jared story has been on my mind ever since I read it in last year's Masquerade; it's such a cute pairing. In the mean time keep_waking_up wrote an equally adorable and hot sequel, that you should read next.
Be aware: despite the look of the art this is NOT an innocent G-rated kids' story! Pay attention to the enticements/warnings;) No bestiality though, if you were wondering about that. *grins*



Title: The Fluff Hunter
Author: keep_waking_up
Pairing: JDM/Jared
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: 4,993
Enticements/Warnings: crack, werecreatures, slight dub-con, self lubrication, age difference
Summary: Jeff thinks the hunt's gonna be a simple one. He doesn’t expect to run into a lion ‘were searching for his mate.
Sequel: Sheepehs, Clouds, Puffs, and Fluffs

( A short making off )

Now, go check out all the goodies above and leave some love to dephigravity, loracine and keep_waking_up!! I adore them all. *smishes*.

J.

Had a great day in Utrecht on Tuesday, but walked so much I had a day of blah to recover yesterday. I did do my daily work out and day 3 of the 30Day ABS challenge, but skipped the DVD training session with Gilad. I spent the day doing mostly nothing with some arting in between.
Today I sent out another job-application and sorted other professional mail. I still have to work out with Gilad, and tonight I'm having dinner at my mom's, so I only have a little time to catch up online pfff.





I also made story banners for stripytights, after I discovered her awesome Jeff/Jensen ficset:



Click on the banners to read the stories!! JDM/Jensen | NC-17 | a/b/o | part 1: ~5500 | part 2: ~3000
Thank you, stripytights for giving me inspiration and an excuse to fiddle with visuals for this:)

I'm still going through other people's wishlist and am working on some paperart pieces for those... This snowflake challenge is a GREAT incentive to reach out and play in other fandoms, I love it!

Snowflake challenge DAY 5: Leave feedback for a fanwork.
Well, obviously I squeed all over the stories up above, because I was thrilled to discover old Jeff/Jensen.
There is also NEW JDM/Jensen to check out, because kalliel was inspired by a drawing sillie82 made for me and wrote a story! How is that for spreading fandom love?
Her Privates We - JDM/Jensen | R | AU | ~950

I also tried to leave as much feedback as possible on recent projects on my friendslist, but I ran out of time to check all of it. As I will be home late tonight, I'll return to that -and day 6/7 of Snowflake- tomorrow!

Y'all are being too creative for me to keep up! *smishes*

J.

Hey JDM/Jensen lovers, have I got some great news for you! Darling ashtraythief wrote a prequel to our RB collaboration Hungry to tell the story of how businessman Jeff and student Jensen met. It's hot and sweet (and comes with a link to the original RB fic to read again right after;)
Summary: Jeff is just looking for a one night stand. Instead, he finds Jensen.
GO READ IT NOW: It's A Start (NC 17 | 5,700 words)

I already mentioned in that Letter Meme from last week that I filled my E-reader for the first time this year. I had completely caught up with my bookpile and felt it was time for some good old fanfic. Turns out I was right: I was worried about getting back into it, but it felt like stepping in a warm bath filled with bubbles and my favorite scent, mmmmm. I've put up J2 story-recs in my readinglist. I've also read some awesome kinkmeme-fills and wips(!), mostly involving JDM. If you're interested in those let me know;)

This week I'm preparing for a marathon-weekend of fangirling fun with sillie82 (who made some awesome RB-artpieces by the way, check out the links here!). We'll be catching up on CSI S15 (we met in the Nick/Greg fandom) and of course on Supernatural:) More on that later.

Right now I'd like to extent some invitations. No matter how much we interact online or how long we know each other, this goes out to everyone reading this journal. (Yes, you too, don't be shy, I promise I'm as nervous about this as you, but how cool would it be to shake hands in person?)

Who would like to meet up at one or more of the following occasions? (Comments with suggestions are welcome too;)

( LONDON, APRIL 4+5 )

I will watch the next two events on the big screen up in my attic. You are welcome to come over and join me! (Sleep overs can be arranged;)

( The Eurovision Song Contest on 19, 21 and 23 MAY 2015 )

( Hungergames marathon in the first half of November )

Anyone? You can PM or mail me: beelikej@gmail.com

J.

Woah, I won the kink meme jackpost this week: another one of my requests was filled! \o/ Not as controversial a kink as the first one I didn't mention out loud in my previous squee-post, but I'm still putting details behind a spoiler cut for those of you who do not wish to know about my pervy preferences;)


Title: Cleanliness Is Next To Godliness
Pairing: Jensen/Jared
Rating: NC17, written for the spnkink_meme
Warnings/Enticements: Watersport
My prompt/request: Jensen and Jared are in a longterm relationship and very comfortable with each other. Every now and then they like to spice things up with one of them being a piss mop. Could be part of humiliation roleplay, just between the two of them or with a group of friends.
No forced keeping it in; the kink is being pissed on, so would prefer to experience the play from that person's point of view. Drinking optional (it's messy after all;) and extra points for aftercare/cleaning up.

Check out how this turned out in the hands of an actual author here if you're interested. Please leave the author some (anonymous) love if you enjoyed the story!


On another note: I'm working on my porn art for next weekend's smpc and also have some PG progress to report on the JDM wings project. Is anyone interested in that? Or should I post some pretty photos from yesterday's trip to Amsterdam first?

A few days ago I was feeling a little down and then the marvelous tmn1966 surprised me with sweet commentfic! A wonderful feelgood story about Jeff, Jensen and Jared meeting in a laundromat and it is all kinds of awesome. I've been snuggling with those guys for the past few days and now I want to share the love. Go read!

The Day Jared Thanked His Mom for Teaching Him To Do Laundry by tmn1966
J3 | PG (for naughty talk;) | ~3,000 words

Ack. I've not been feeling interesting enough to post adventures and thoughts lately. But since I had planned to keep track of my fanfic reading, and to not get too far behind, I'm sharing a list of stories I read in the past month. (Warning: it's a long one) The fact that I finished these means I liked them, so they're all recommended. I've added stars to the ones I absolutely loved, if you're looking for something to read right now, start with those;) Mind the warnings, though! My taste may not be yours after all;)

( Some things old, some things new, some things borrowed, some things blue.... )
Speaking of that last challenge: for those of you who missed my post after I messed up the latest import to my Dreamwidth: I posted my first artwork of 2013! For callistosh65's lovely nonAU story about Jensen taking care of a sick Jared, I made a paper portrait, pancakes, and more!

My next challenge is spn_cinema: I chose Canadian film Les Amours Imaginaires to be inspired by: "The story of three close friends who are involved in a love-triangle." I will tell you more about that later :-p (If you can, watch it, the English title is 'Heartbeats' a rather inadequate translation, as it lacks the colourful feel of the original, but luckily that doesn't change the awesomeness of the film itself;)

In between rolling around in fandom, I've also finished some regular books, you can find that reading list here.

On Friday I started on a new jigsaw puzzle, this one is 2000 pieces, so that should keep me busy while my mind is swirling with ideas *g*