Dare to be different and learn to be lonely

Finished that menstruation book I was raving about yesterday \o/. Besides being a lot of fun to read, it was quite educational in a non-stuffy way. The book also reminded me I had meant to look for alternative for pads in combination with my menstrual cup. I could use some advice on this. ( I'll continue behind the cut for those who are not in the mood for more on this subject; )
Thanks for listening:) Feel free to talk about any experience with periods or femcare products. If you have any questions about the cup, I'll gladly answer them!

J.

Huh, here I was worried it was too silly, so I'm immensely proud and pleased with the response to my artwork for spn_cinema:) *blushes*.

Been working on my entry for spn_meanttobe for a while, but have no idea how to finish it, so I'm gonna put it aside until tomorrow. Will have to make some sort of schedule to 1. reply to comments; 2. post meanttobe art; 3. start sketching for BigBang. There is a big family birthday next weekend and then it's a long weekend London and then and then and then... What is time? Also: work. *rolls eyes*

Confessiontime: I'm mighty wobbly from all the pictures that have been showing up from Mr. Jeffrey Dean Morgan in Cannes. *sighs* (to promote The Salvation) Dayum. He's wearing some very sophisticated suits (one with a VEST even)
(I may or may not have been imagining being able to write fanfic and done some research on how close Cannes is to Rome, where Jensen and Jared will be next weekend. What? I'm suffering from a very bloody period and I'm horny, shut up.)

So it seems my body has indeed entered the early stages of menopause (apparently you're not supposed to actually call it that until the 'm' has paused for over a year;). Last year my cycle skipped two months which gave me the misguided hope that the whole thing was over with. This delightful feeling was crashed in December, when it was party-time as usual. *pouts*
Since a couple of weeks my body is completely confused and I have no idea what my monthly timeline is. The past few days I experienced all the usually spread out festivities at once: headache and nausea from pms, cramps from ovulation and -woohoo- a bloody mess that doesn't fit the normal schedule.

Seeing as I've been as regular as clockwork since the beginning (oh my, has it been thirty years already?) I made a doctor's appointment to rule out other issues. Physical examination didn't show any problems, so that at least eased my mind. I still have to wait two weeks for the result of the additional test, but I expect that to be alright as well.

Looks like I have no other option than to go with the flow (so to speak, heh). *angrily starts singing You make me feel like a natural woman.

Hrmpf.

Pffff, my body was not happy this morning after yesterday's activities. Objecting muscles everywhere whenever I moved! Luckily I could make it feel better this afternoon with that rescheduled treat: a hot stone/cold stone massage. I had no idea what to expect, so I was glad my masseuse explained a little bit of what was going to happen beforehand. She still managed to surprise me though;)

At the beginning of the session my back got covered in (heavy!) hot stones before my masseuse worked on my legs one by one. She alternately rubbed the oil around with hot stones and ICECOLD stones, eeep! Quite a shock to the system, but a very nice feeling. At the end she put tiny hot pebbles in between my toes and wrapped my feet up with a hot stone on the soles. Then she started on my back, taking away the hot stones and rubbing hot oil on before doing the hot/cold stones alternation again, in very fancy patterns. That difference in temperature was a lot harsher than on my legs; there was very deep and loud sighing on my end *grins* SO GOOD. After a bit of snoozing with another set of hot stones on my back we ended the session with a face massage, also including cold stones.
What a wonderful massage, I didn't feel as sleepy afterwards as with my usual Chinese kneeding session; just very relaxed and refreshed. Definitely one I'll ask for again in the future!

This evening I've been looking into tours and traveling between Sydney and Melbourne; the massive amount of options (and costs) got me a bit down. Decided to put it aside for the rest of the night. I wish I had a PA to arrange these things for me.

This was pretty much a perfect day; all the time for myself and I accidently fit in some chores as well, go me! Started with putting out the garbage and then did some reading on the couch, finishing a wonderful BB-fic on my e-reader.

After that I had a luxury shower and did the dishes (only a week old!). I caught up online and validated my new creditcard. Had a big lunch and repaired my pink hat while watching the news.

Highlight of the day was my mmmassage; I was so glad I had decided to take the bus and not cycle there in this humid heat. Besides enjoying the climate control, it also gave me over half an hour of reading time (back and forth!), diving into another brilliant BB-fic *happy sigh*.

The massage was perfect, even if kneeding my calves and shoulder muscles felt a little harsh, my body clearly needed that;) My regular/favorite massage is a custom made version of a Chinese massage, called 'Time for yourself' and that's exactly what it is. There is no set time, it lasts until it's done. Today that was about an hour of uninterupted bliss.

Originally I had another massage planned for Friday, but since it's gonna be a whopping 33 Celsius then, my masseuse and I figured it was better to reschedule to Wednesday. I've chosen a hot and cold stone massage, am very curious to find out what that's like. Will report back here;)

On my way home I did groceries (there was a very convenient busstop in front of a supermarket) and had a meatball Subway while waiting for the next bus (It has been years since I had one, so good). When I got home I plopped down on the couch and finished the second BB fic of today (accompanied by ice and chocolate;)

Now I'm gonna do the rounds online before bed (probably chinhand at all those behind the scenes gifs of J2M fooling around at that new photoshoot;). I'm still on a dopey high from that massage, so will no doubt fall asleep easily:)

Night night.

Hey, boobs. You're supposed to stop hurting when the bleeding starts. Get with the program, dammit.

Ugh, a rough start of the day... ( behind the cut because of tmi re: ttotm )


But even after all that I did manage to catch my bus, that made me happy again:)

Plus at work my intern handed out homemade cake; his mom baked it because of his 18th birthday (so freaking young, pfff). Yum.

Also good: I finished reading one great fanfic and dove straight into another one, that is still a bit confusing, but very intriguing.

Speaking of reading: I updated my booklist! I started buying books again, even though I still have loads of stories on my e-reader;)

Random photos
Last week I went into town with mom and finally got a good look of the modern day statue of Archangel Michael - I think he's wearing jeans: ( plus another awesome shot of stormy clouds )

I'm relieved to share that my body returned to its regular schedule today, so I will be able to enjoy the traveling and concerts next week without any hormonal fuss. Yay. (There will still be silly fangirling and squee of course, I can do that without being under the influence;)

Other exciting news: I claimed a story for artwork in the spn_j2_bigbang!

That was a little nervewracking on top of the stressful workdays I had and I'm exhausted, so I'll leave the check up of my designs for spn_cinema for tomorrow. All will be revealed then!

I was going through the photos of my brother's wedding yesterday and noticed you can tell from the pale green colour of my skin what time of the month it is. Nowadays every period comes with its own sufferings and this time around I am treated to overwhelming nausea on top of the usual symptoms. Luckily the pretty pink pills helped fight the back aches and the party was mostly of the sitting down variety, so I was able to enjoy the festivities.

Today I'm still wobbly from nausea, but I have work to distract me. During breaks and on the bus reading The Fry Chronicles takes my mind of the blah.

Tonight I'm going to the arthouse with mom to -finally- see The Kids Are Allright. I'm a little apprehensive about the big names that are attached to this film, but both brotherdearest and filmfriend Jelle told me the young actors get their chance to shine and they alone are worth watching. We'll see;)

I'm counting down to the 14th for the new Panic! at the Disco single, such sweet anticipation. (I'm possibly even more nervous about it than the band;)