Dare to be different and learn to be lonely

I don't like FB because it's place for old acquaintances to put up an facade of how great life they are leading, and all it shows me is that I am still on the outside of whatever society I was meant to be in by this point of life. I keep staying there though - because I have gottent in touch with 2 old friends, that I wouldn't have gotten in touch with again hadn't it been for FB. So, I can just stay there and try not to be too depressed reading the wall.

Twitter is a place to either follow or to be followed, and sometimes that makes me feel sick.

To be honest, I wouldn't have been on either FB or Twitter if it hadn't been for half my flist declaring a couple of years ago that they would step back from LJ and mostly keep up with fb and twitter.

I am more comfortable with places where we can post actual posts, and have discussions, and where it is not just based on statuslines and 140 char tweets.... just for ppl to like and re-tweet. I don't want to be dependent on a 'popularity contest site' to keep up with friends. But I guess people satisfy their need for more thurough interaction in their day-to-day life and aren't as dependent on LJ for that to happen as I am. It just makes me sad when friends leave, or mostly step away from LJ, because it means that I lose contact with people that are important for me. But hey, I've come to realize that's how it is.

Sockpuppet accounts at LJ scares me. It has to do with control. I like to know who I talk to. I mean - not always knowing exactly who I talk to - more that I know that I do NOT talk to this or that person. Like - I commented on a fic the other day. It was a rather personal comment, so I did it through PM. What I said was absolutely not about anyone else, and I could have said it in public, hadn't it been for knowing that there are one person I didn't want to read that because of previous discussions (that they might not even remember - they are not on my flist, and has never been - so they probably don't even remember me. It's just that I clearly remember that discussion.) If I had found out that the author posting that fic, and therefor received my PM was just a sockpuppet for that person, then I would have been devestated. And because of the excessive use of sockpuppets here in LJ, I never feel quite comfortable outside my own flocked posts. I used to post everything public, and have gone more and more paranoid. I don't like that development.
Eh - you know me, I am weird.