Dare to be different and learn to be lonely

:-)
I also notice that when I do enjoy making art even more - and have that feeling of being respected for it - it's easier for me just concentrating on art (which is what I am best at) and doesn't have that need to write fic to have a position in fandom so to speak. It might be that I will write more fics - I don't know. But writing fic has, for me, been more like pulling teeth and not getting that much out of it. So if I spend my time making art - and being more brave about it - I get more joy out of it. And basically, that is my purpose. And that should be my purpose, because this is no job, so no one wants to pay me to do it :-)