You don't have to be sick to be dying

I'm weepie. I was planning a big post about how I feel, but it probably sounds more coherent in my head, so I'm just gonna write down the final destiny of my wandering mind's journey. My resolution for days to come is to go back to being cynical. I feel like it's the best option for me as to not be torn apart with feelings and worries about friends and family. I liked myself a lot better when I wasn't so concerned about/with others. It's not meant to sound as dramatic as that; nobody is in any life-danger -including me-, but I just can't handle this whole friend thing. I'm making too big a deal of it and it makes me feel like a loser.

I desperately want to be a happy loner again.