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beelikejSigh. The boobs of doom have been bothering me ever since my last pms/period cycle. Normally they would only hurt during the week of pms and then I'd be done with them until the next month. But they've been painfully defying gravity for weeks now and it's driving me mad. I haven't worn a bra since I was 24, but last week I found myself in several shops considering buying one. I'm getting a little desperate; in my memory bras are very uncomfortable. Walking around with no support is not ideal either (I do wear tight sportshirts during pms), but wearing a bra made me even more aware of my chest and I hate being reminded of my female-status all the time. The last time I tried on a bra I nearly cried, that's how much I didn't want to wear one, I felt very awkward and returned it to the shop.
The weight I lost in the past months has not only come off my belly, but also shrunk my breasts to a point where I actually even appreciate them, but I'm getting really emotional thinking about having to wear a bra.
Another thing that has been on my mind a lot is my still increasing need for sex. As I understand from a discussion last year, masturbation is not considered 'having sex', but it's all I have, since I'm not slutty enough to go out and grab another willing body. But the horny has reached a level where I'm seriously thinking about trying to find someone to satisfy my needs. Although I'm very good at enjoying myself, I'm so fucking tense and on edge ALL THE TIME I fear I'm gonna get into trouble when my brain loses control.
I heard women reach their peak at forty, but I don't know if I can last another year with these raging hormones. (I talked to my mom about this and she said I might not be 'average', meaning I should be prepared to have these extreme feelings way beyond forty. Thanks mom.)
Ehm. Yeah. I welcome (anonymous) thoughts and suggestions.
The weight I lost in the past months has not only come off my belly, but also shrunk my breasts to a point where I actually even appreciate them, but I'm getting really emotional thinking about having to wear a bra.
Another thing that has been on my mind a lot is my still increasing need for sex. As I understand from a discussion last year, masturbation is not considered 'having sex', but it's all I have, since I'm not slutty enough to go out and grab another willing body. But the horny has reached a level where I'm seriously thinking about trying to find someone to satisfy my needs. Although I'm very good at enjoying myself, I'm so fucking tense and on edge ALL THE TIME I fear I'm gonna get into trouble when my brain loses control.
I heard women reach their peak at forty, but I don't know if I can last another year with these raging hormones. (I talked to my mom about this and she said I might not be 'average', meaning I should be prepared to have these extreme feelings way beyond forty. Thanks mom.)
Ehm. Yeah. I welcome (anonymous) thoughts and suggestions.