Angst! Love! Slash! ..... and Harry Potter :-)

[beelikej]

Behind cuts because I feel like hiding my obscenely long rants about life... take your pick:


Sometimes I wish I had a personal assistent to handle the planning of my life...
Today I was going to cancel my insurance and plan my trip to London online, but the first has to be done by regular mail, so I'll postpone that to a weekday as to make decent print-outs of the form at work.
The (theatre)trip may not happen at all, because I'm on the edge of freaking out. I was pretty close to buying a trainticket, but when I tried to find accomodation I started to get pissed off about single rates -again- and the thought of staying in a youthhostel is creeping me out at the moment. Could this be the end of hip and happening backpacking Judith? Fuck, I'm not even hormonal, but I feel like whining.

I really have to plan something to get out of the house during my vacation or else I might get stuck behind the computer 24/7 (sadly I'm not even exaggerating those hours)
But... I did just set a date with brotherdearest to go the Efteling Fairytale-ThemePark. So that counts as a trip, right? I also want to go to Amsterdam for a possible movie-marathon and a visit to the exhibition of Spencer Tunick's pictures.
So next to the Painting-The-Livingroom-Project and reading Book 7, I have plenty of non-computerstuff to do. It's just that I feel like a loser for not traveling during my vacation. This sucks.


I'm not waiting for mail at all...
Okaaay. I haven't shared the specifics of these mailmates before and I might still be a bit cryptic about them, but I need to vent a little or I'm going crazy.
Y'all know I've been having some issues with making and meeting friends the past year. Because I don't need other people, yo. But I worked on that issue in the past months and I figured it out: I'm a hermit. With friends. Hermits united. (thank you Doctor)
But apparently I'm still struggling with the whole thing. I don't want to spend my time being concerned about my different relationships with others. Even if I sometimes feel like I'm giving more than I'm getting, -or if I'm lacking interest in areas that are important to them- I have decided it doesn't matter as long as I stay true to myself and don't expect too much from others. Since I'm not used to dealing with other people I might overdo it sometimes, but this should not be my problem. I can still enjoy the relationship in whatever shape or form it will develop.
But now I find myself getting more nervous everyday since I haven't received an answer from C. yet. I fear I may have been a bit too harsh on certain personal subjects in my last mail. On the other hand: if he can't handle that, he is not the person for me to hang out with (in writing or in rl;) right?

The other mail I shouldn't be expecting is from the blast from the past. I had already given up on hearing from L. anyway, so I should just be happy there was a response months after I made first contact. But even though I am relieved about not being ignored, I'm not quite satisfied with the result. Why can't I just leave it alone and move on? Grumble.


Moving on...
Yesterday Jelle came over for some Harry Potter fun. We had a great time. After dinner we watched The Goblet Of Fire in the attic, which was again awesome. And then it was time to cycle to the cinema for the much anticipated Order Of The Phoenix. It had been a while for me to share a theater with so many people. It was sold out, but of course I had picked the best seats:) And because it was a late night showing there weren't any kiddies around. Perfect.

I LOVED the movie. Despite the missing scenes and the near complete lack of fun. The angst was as overwhelming as it was in the book, even though I had expected to see more fighting between Harry and Dumbledore: their final conversation was still good, but I could have done with more shouting!Harry. The same goes for the start of the film where he -finally- hears about the Order while Ron and Hermione apparently have known all along.
Still: Harry's and Sirius' relationship blew me away. The first time I read the book I really didn't get it, but the reread made me see the light and the film was even more painful to experience. Of course their conversations were heartfelt, but the unspoken messages between them were even better. Damn those guys for making my heart hurt.

Between the angst there were some tiny sparkling fun moments. My favorite was the one taking litterally from the book: "So how was it?"..."Wet" Heheheheheh. The response from Ron and the explanation from Hermione were classic boy/girl point of views. The whole scene was just lovely.
I also adored all the flash-back-bits; the good and bad memories of Harry brought back -ehm- good and bad memories. Sigh.
The flashback to Snape's memory could and should have been more explored in my opinion and I'm not just saying that because of Sirius/Remus either. It just seems like quite a significant experience to explain his behavior to Harry and what is to come, so I wish the older Hogwarts-generation had gotten more screentime. Maybe in the next one? (As Tanni said: don't be affraid to make it a long(er) movie;)

Special mention for the aweful Kittenplates of Umbridge and the woman herself, the hideously perfectly played Bellatrix Lestrange and sad Trewlany: well done Imelda, Helena and Emma. And ofcourse only Mr. Alan Rickman could deliver a single word with just the right amount of sarcasm. "Obviously" *loves them all*

Best movietheater-experience: when Fudge arrives at the Ministry after the events and realizes: "He's back" the whole audience went "Duh". Heh. Funny.

And then there is this possible spoilerthingy, even though it is mentioned in the book. There was a line in tOotP that always bothered me and the movie confirmed my suspicions. But I don't want to ruin the surprise if it turns out to be of real significance. So to protect the ignorant I will put this little tidbit in a seperate post, well hidden from daily business. Follow me if you want to know what I'm babbling about.... Or (re)read the book first and see if you figure it out for yourself;) Don't say I didn't warn ya!

Let me finish this longer than life post with some random thoughts and links to get you out of here.

Maybe you remember that honey shampoo I was so crazy about. I've also found Honey Showergel. It's golden and it glows and it's delicious and yes, just as good as that shampoo. Guh.

I've pimped MySpace with slashy and funny videos: scroll down to 'my interests' to enjoy the pretty, the funny and the slashy;)

Besides Yesterday's innocent reclist of Sirius/Remus fanfiction, I also recommend this NC-17 story: "The Collar"

This vid made me giggle like mad. Warrick/Nick is so not a couple, but it is a very adorable montage:)

Of course the OTP of CSI is Nick/Greg and I have discovered a new writer in fandom who's story blew my mind. Disregard the akward title, read this and agree with me: Speculations on the Sexual Orientations of Certain Hollywood Types: The Return of Greg Sanders

That's all folks. I will try and find some food now. Mmmm. Food.

Comments

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I however tend to read all new writers, at least give them a chance. Often I quit their stories half way, but at least I try. I simply overlooked this until you pointed it out.

I am in so need for more reading now. I crave n/g.... and there simply isn't much good out there now.