Angst! Love! Slash! ..... and Harry Potter :-)

[beelikej]

Behind cuts because I feel like hiding my obscenely long rants about life... take your pick:


Sometimes I wish I had a personal assistent to handle the planning of my life...
Today I was going to cancel my insurance and plan my trip to London online, but the first has to be done by regular mail, so I'll postpone that to a weekday as to make decent print-outs of the form at work.
The (theatre)trip may not happen at all, because I'm on the edge of freaking out. I was pretty close to buying a trainticket, but when I tried to find accomodation I started to get pissed off about single rates -again- and the thought of staying in a youthhostel is creeping me out at the moment. Could this be the end of hip and happening backpacking Judith? Fuck, I'm not even hormonal, but I feel like whining.

I really have to plan something to get out of the house during my vacation or else I might get stuck behind the computer 24/7 (sadly I'm not even exaggerating those hours)
But... I did just set a date with brotherdearest to go the Efteling Fairytale-ThemePark. So that counts as a trip, right? I also want to go to Amsterdam for a possible movie-marathon and a visit to the exhibition of Spencer Tunick's pictures.
So next to the Painting-The-Livingroom-Project and reading Book 7, I have plenty of non-computerstuff to do. It's just that I feel like a loser for not traveling during my vacation. This sucks.


I'm not waiting for mail at all...
Okaaay. I haven't shared the specifics of these mailmates before and I might still be a bit cryptic about them, but I need to vent a little or I'm going crazy.
Y'all know I've been having some issues with making and meeting friends the past year. Because I don't need other people, yo. But I worked on that issue in the past months and I figured it out: I'm a hermit. With friends. Hermits united. (thank you Doctor)
But apparently I'm still struggling with the whole thing. I don't want to spend my time being concerned about my different relationships with others. Even if I sometimes feel like I'm giving more than I'm getting, -or if I'm lacking interest in areas that are important to them- I have decided it doesn't matter as long as I stay true to myself and don't expect too much from others. Since I'm not used to dealing with other people I might overdo it sometimes, but this should not be my problem. I can still enjoy the relationship in whatever shape or form it will develop.
But now I find myself getting more nervous everyday since I haven't received an answer from C. yet. I fear I may have been a bit too harsh on certain personal subjects in my last mail. On the other hand: if he can't handle that, he is not the person for me to hang out with (in writing or in rl;) right?

The other mail I shouldn't be expecting is from the blast from the past. I had already given up on hearing from L. anyway, so I should just be happy there was a response months after I made first contact. But even though I am relieved about not being ignored, I'm not quite satisfied with the result. Why can't I just leave it alone and move on? Grumble.


Moving on...
Yesterday Jelle came over for some Harry Potter fun. We had a great time. After dinner we watched The Goblet Of Fire in the attic, which was again awesome. And then it was time to cycle to the cinema for the much anticipated Order Of The Phoenix. It had been a while for me to share a theater with so many people. It was sold out, but of course I had picked the best seats:) And because it was a late night showing there weren't any kiddies around. Perfect.

I LOVED the movie. Despite the missing scenes and the near complete lack of fun. The angst was as overwhelming as it was in the book, even though I had expected to see more fighting between Harry and Dumbledore: their final conversation was still good, but I could have done with more shouting!Harry. The same goes for the start of the film where he -finally- hears about the Order while Ron and Hermione apparently have known all along.
Still: Harry's and Sirius' relationship blew me away. The first time I read the book I really didn't get it, but the reread made me see the light and the film was even more painful to experience. Of course their conversations were heartfelt, but the unspoken messages between them were even better. Damn those guys for making my heart hurt.

Between the angst there were some tiny sparkling fun moments. My favorite was the one taking litterally from the book: "So how was it?"..."Wet" Heheheheheh. The response from Ron and the explanation from Hermione were classic boy/girl point of views. The whole scene was just lovely.
I also adored all the flash-back-bits; the good and bad memories of Harry brought back -ehm- good and bad memories. Sigh.
The flashback to Snape's memory could and should have been more explored in my opinion and I'm not just saying that because of Sirius/Remus either. It just seems like quite a significant experience to explain his behavior to Harry and what is to come, so I wish the older Hogwarts-generation had gotten more screentime. Maybe in the next one? (As Tanni said: don't be affraid to make it a long(er) movie;)

Special mention for the aweful Kittenplates of Umbridge and the woman herself, the hideously perfectly played Bellatrix Lestrange and sad Trewlany: well done Imelda, Helena and Emma. And ofcourse only Mr. Alan Rickman could deliver a single word with just the right amount of sarcasm. "Obviously" *loves them all*

Best movietheater-experience: when Fudge arrives at the Ministry after the events and realizes: "He's back" the whole audience went "Duh". Heh. Funny.

And then there is this possible spoilerthingy, even though it is mentioned in the book. There was a line in tOotP that always bothered me and the movie confirmed my suspicions. But I don't want to ruin the surprise if it turns out to be of real significance. So to protect the ignorant I will put this little tidbit in a seperate post, well hidden from daily business. Follow me if you want to know what I'm babbling about.... Or (re)read the book first and see if you figure it out for yourself;) Don't say I didn't warn ya!

Let me finish this longer than life post with some random thoughts and links to get you out of here.

Maybe you remember that honey shampoo I was so crazy about. I've also found Honey Showergel. It's golden and it glows and it's delicious and yes, just as good as that shampoo. Guh.

I've pimped MySpace with slashy and funny videos: scroll down to 'my interests' to enjoy the pretty, the funny and the slashy;)

Besides Yesterday's innocent reclist of Sirius/Remus fanfiction, I also recommend this NC-17 story: "The Collar"

This vid made me giggle like mad. Warrick/Nick is so not a couple, but it is a very adorable montage:)

Of course the OTP of CSI is Nick/Greg and I have discovered a new writer in fandom who's story blew my mind. Disregard the akward title, read this and agree with me: Speculations on the Sexual Orientations of Certain Hollywood Types: The Return of Greg Sanders

That's all folks. I will try and find some food now. Mmmm. Food.

Comments

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

Hey, a trip to A'dam, painting, movie marathons and Potter-reading are all perfectly valid ways to spend your time. I agree that the single fares are annoyingly overpriced. I'm going to London for the Infinity convention in October, when the prices are mid-season and much better.

It's my theory that a relationship with a human is too complex for the human brain to understand (yay for paradoxes!).Although I have to agree HEARTILY that if you can't be honest with someone without repercussions, she/he is clearly not as invested as they should be. It's one of my big pet peeves in friendships as well. The friends I still have (wow, that sounds ominous) are the ones I can speak my mind to, even if it's not what they want to hear.

There were no kiddies in my theatre as well, but there was someone talking on her cell. OMG *stabbity*.
- Shouting!Harry was so awesome. Me and my mom totally cringed, yo. Heh.
- I loved Ron's delivery when he said that noone could possibly have all those emotions. This is why Weasley is my king *ruffles his hair*.
- Oo yeah, loved all the flashback bits too. And I would have KILLED to see more young!Marauders stuff, but I guess that what I have that fic-I-keep-pimping for, huh? Still, it would have done more in the way of giving Snape and his dislike for James and Sirius more depth. And okay I realize now that that's exactly what you typed, so nevermind :p.
- God, yes, Alan Rickman has the best delivery ever. All polite with gritted teeth and that obvious undertone that said 'I would kill you poison you right now'. Lurvely.

Harry's and Sirius' relationship blew me away.
God, me too. I've loved their interaction since PoA, and I think a lot of it has to do with the fact that they apparently have this mentor/protegé thing going on in real life as well. How 'aw' worthy is that? Jeebus.

I bravely followed the link, heart in throat and all that, and I've read the exact same theory in one of the editorials at mugglenet (yes, I'm a great big dork). So yes, I really think you're on to something. Eeh, you're gonna feel so smug when that turns out to be really important ;)!

Wheee, will go read that rec now. I spent half my afternoon reading franticbabble's fics and giggling, going 'aw' and squealing in a highly undignified manner. Damn you, life, for giving me yet another OTP!

And yessss, read that N/G fic too. Was not blown away just yet, but very pleasantly surprised nonetheless! But then, I have such a one!bed!kink ;).
Wow, longest comment ever. *runs away*

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

To be honest, it wasn't just the prices that upset me, but it's a great excuse to not continue planning a trip. (Better than admitting to being too worried/lazy/old to bother) I must however make a conscious effort to get out of the house on at least some of those days off...

Thanks for your wise words and agreeing with me. Seems like we have a pet peeve in common. That's a nice change from sharing fangirlish stuff;)

I spent last night going through screencaps of PoA and OotP: even in stills you can sense the chemistry. I need to make icons.

I can't believe you followed the linky, I did give you enough warnings, right? And yes, I will shamelessly gloat when all is reveiled. That was the purpose of posting it in the first place: so I can go 'I told you so' *g*

I wasn't so much blown away by the story as by the fact that I actually liked a new writer. I tend to ignore the newbies these days. But sometimes a girl needs some NC17 and I'll even tread unknown territory to get my fix;)

*runs after you, shouting: "come back: me likey!"*

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

Hey, vacation is meant for relaxing. Surfing the web and indulging in HP-related stuff is totally relaxing! See!

Oh, and a big sparkly 'YAY!' for the icon plans *bounce*. I feel so sad with my one measly (heh, I totally typed weasley just now *lame*) HP-related icon. There must be more!

There were plenty of warnings, and I know curiosity killed the cat and all that, but I can't help myself. Which is exactly why I need to stay away from the Nets while reading DH! And if it ends up being true, you have my permission to gloat as much as you want ;).

Very true, I haven't liked a new writer since opaquevision and rurounihime. Which just reminds me that the N/G portion of my recs list is waaaay too short. This must be remedied!
(Oh and randomly: my internet was died all morning, so I finished making the lego model of Lupin's classroom and dude, it looks so freaking cool! *hugs you*)

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

Oh, read that fic, and YAY! Good one! Thank you for pointing me in teh right direction! Just what I needed after a CSI marathon that just had me longing for more Nick/Greg!

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

I tend to ignore new writers, but every now and then I desperately need a NC17 and the old stories don't always work for those occasions, iykwim;)

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

I however tend to read all new writers, at least give them a chance. Often I quit their stories half way, but at least I try. I simply overlooked this until you pointed it out.

I am in so need for more reading now. I crave n/g.... and there simply isn't much good out there now.

[sillie]

* Hermit with friends. Sounds like me. XD But anyway, friend should be the persons you can be totally honest with, weather it's harsh or not.

* Harry Potter... haven't seen the movie yet, but it's in the planning for somewhere this week. :3

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Indeed. I will not worry about not getting a reply. It's his loss if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore.

Oooh, let me know what you think. I'm still madly in awe of the experience, but don't hold back if you find anything wrong with it;)