I want to be the only one [yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah]

[beelikej]

This has been quite an emotional weekend. Well, Saturday mostly. I thought I would have a final big cry on Sunday, but so far, I've been surprisingly calm.

Yesterday I went to visit my BFF O. because me and mom were invited to admire his big shiny new house. We hadn't seen each other in two (three?) years, mostly because since our last visit I have been living my life online and O. functions first and foremost in what is known as the real world, so he didn't really understand how to reach me (both physically and mentally;). But despite the severe lack of communication in the past few years, as soon as we hugged hello it felt like old times. Well, apart from the huge house, the extended family (damn those kids are cute) and him wearing fancy shoes. We may even have choked up. Okay, so he choked up and I later had a little break down and hid in the toilet for a bit. Unfortunately this was an 'everybody is invited'-Open House thingy and there were people all over the place, so we didn't really have a chance to talk, but I'm pretty sure we will make time for that soon.

In the afternoon me and mom went to visit gran. Since she had the second stroke, she's been getting more and more confused. Every time we see her, she tells us how the stupid doctor told her she will never walk again and then we have to explain that the doctor is right (her left arm and leg are paralyzed). It breaks my heart and it makes her so angry and sad.
But when we take her outside for coffee and cake at the little hospital cafe, we usually manage to joke around and talk about the past and the silliness of life and that makes everything a little more bearable. Still, I wish... Let's just say I hope I will never end up that helpless and have others take control over my life.

The final stop on our family-and friends-tour was to the religious grandparents K. In between subtle reminders to both mom and me how they have a social life thanks to the church (and we don't because we are pathetic heathens) they were mostly busy talking about their 60th wedding anniversary in December. They want to invite the whole family, but have problems deciding who is still or not yet a part of that (I swear it's like a badly written soap-opera). I think I am at least going to be welcome. Anyone wanna join me? Extra bonuspoints if you're willing to pretend to be my boy- or girlfriend *g*





P.S. there is another challenge in tw_hush I'm participating in, you are invited to vote for your favorite textless icons. I'd beg to pick me, but I'm not allowed to tell you which are mine, so I guess I'll just have to hope you will recognize the best *grins* You can vote until Monday evening UStime

Comments

[carolinecrane.livejournal.com]

I'm always happy to play the pretend girlfriend. Pity I live so far away :)

[giwu.livejournal.com]

It sounds like you had a rough weekend. **Hugs** and I am sorry to hear about your Gran.

I was thinking of you last week. I wanted to know a couple of obnoxious phrases in Dutch and I was trying to figure out a way for me to read them so I could pronounce them correctly.

[sillie]

*snug*

Also? Again, awesome icons. Voted. Hope you win this time. :3

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

It is too bad you don't live near. Thanks for the offer though;)

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Well, luckily I had mom around for comfort (and vice versa) and I had anticipated the awkwardness for all visits mentioned above. Thanks for your comment and the hugs, they are very much appreciated.

Hey, if you still need to know, mail me! (I'm curious now;)

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

*huggles*

Didn't win and I'm not competing this week due to lack of inspiration. But thanks for voting! I'm amazed by all the different icons that people make from the same pics.

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

See, I hate being out of the loop on your life. *kicks pebbles*

they have a social life thanks to the church (and we don't because we are pathetic heathens)
*shudders* So glad my family is not religious.
When's the anniversary? I should be back in December after all, so I'll gladly be your date, heh.

See, we totally have a social life! *g*

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Hey, you were there for me when I came back home. But I still miss you.

If I remember correctly the party is on December 13. But you might have to move in with me or even marry me to qualify for an invitation *g*. I'd love to take you with me. *shut up, brain, it's only pretend*

We only socialize for the right reasons;)

I see your Brendon and I offer you Kate.

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

I miss you too, you're so far awaaay *whine*.

I can totally make that ;). And I don't know, will you treat me like a princess *veg*?

Hee, I see them, trying to outdo each other in the jerk-glasses department. Bless.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

(I'd treat you as if you were Brendon himself *g*)

You know that icon does things to me, right? ngh.

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

Hee!

And muahahaha. That is, of course, why I use it. Not because it does things to me, too. No sir...