Bitching behind the cut

[beelikej]

I realised I haven't complained about my backproblems for a while (it's been over a week, people!) so I figured I am allowed some whine-time again. Because it has been pretty bad the past couple of days and despite the destraction and joy Harry provided, I really haven't had much of a happy vacation so far (one week down, two to go). I'm in constant pain and can't move very much. Sitting down (too long) is nearly impossible and as it happens most of the things I enjoy doing involve formerly comfy seats: working on the computer (incl. designing, blogging, journal, writing mails and messages), reading (online fanfiction and offline books), watching movies (in the attic or cinema). So basically: stuff that makes me feel comfortable is causing pain. Isn't it ironic.

I'm glad I didn't plan a back-packing journey these three weeks, but I can't even do the daytrips to Amsterdam or the Efteling I was looking forward to, because the traveling by bus/train/car would kill me before I got there.

This morning I woke up with very little pain, but unfortunately the stiffness is kind of varying inversely with the pain, thus I could hardly move. I had planned to go into town with mom to buy paint for the Livingroomproject: I'm not giving up on that yet! Once mom was here, she helped me and put on my socks and shoes (she's a profesional in assisting people with needs you know;). I thought the cycling and walking around went okay, but after about an hour I was exhausted and we could barely make it to the necessary stores before I had to go home. But before we headed back mom treated me to a hot waffle with warm cherries and whipcream at the waffle-stand (no seats, wahey!) so we ended our trip on a high;) When I got home I crashed and had to take a nap. (a nap in the afternoon, isn't that one of the signs of getting old? Grumble)

I realise a lot of my backproblems are stressrelated, but unfortunately the pain and stiffness do not go away by simply not being at work or resting. I am trying to remember (and do;) the excercises I have been taught in the past, but so far it's been very frustrating. Simple things like turning over in bed, going to the toilet, taking a shower and getting dressed seem very complicated and almost impossible to do. I'll spare you the intimate details of other lovely things I can't do at the moment - even though by merely using the word 'intimate' I think I just gave you an idea - but to summarize: I can't reach or bend and it's annoying the hell out of me. I do not want my failing body to bring me down, but it's hard when whatever I would usually do to take my mind off things is now a harsh reminder of the problem./whine

I've made an appointment with a physical therapist for Tuesday. I'm hoping for a massage next to the unavoidable excercises. That guy better be good with his hands nice to me.

Comments

[sillie]

Awww, that really, really sucks. I hope the physical therapist can help you a little. *sends good vibes your way*

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I really hope I can convince him I need a massage;)

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

Do you have locked discs or something?

I often have problems with locked discs, and the only thing that works for me now is chiropractor. I highly recommend that if you haven't tried. I usually need a few treatments before it's better, but it'll get me through in the end.

When I got pregnant I got a bad case of locked discs and I ended up spending HOURS in the shower.... hot shower tended to ease my pain a bit (because I couldn't take meds... pregnant remember). I have to say, in bad cases, I have a tendency to use Pinex Forte.

If I don't have meds or have already turned into a prune by the hot showers, I use LOTS of tiger balm. It really relaxes the muscles.

Anyway - this might have been way off - but maybe some of this will help, and if it does then reading this might have helped. If not, I probably just have bothered you, and then I owe you a story or something. *sigh*

*KLEM*

Hope you get better soon!
At least a good icon for you! :-)

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

I'm pretty sure it's nothing as mechanical as that. It's mostly the muscles cramping up due to stress and of course the massive amount of sitting down and focusing on a computer screen and being creative while trying to make deadlines. Plus bad backs run in the family: it's the part of the body that takes the punches I guess.
I tried tiger balm, but it felt really uncomfortable, so now I just tie a warm cloth around my back after a hot shower. That seems to sooth the pain as well.

You didn't bother me at all, it was very nice of you to offer advise. I wouldn't say no to a story though *g*

Yes! Thanks for that icon, very considerate, mmmm: smile with glasses 8)

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

::rubs soothing circles from afar::

I'm sorry you're in such pain. I wish there was a simple fix for you, but hopefully it will ease before you have to go back to work. Not the best way to spend your vacation.

Love and best wishes flowing your way...

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

*sighs of relief* thank you.

I really should have called in sick the day my vacation started, then I wouldn't lose any of those free-days and could have a proper vacation later. I guess I'm too dedicated to the job. I just hope I'll be fit and strong again when I get back to work, so I will have the strength to discuss the stress-issues with my boss.

[kennedy-unknown.livejournal.com]

Sorry to hear about your pain - back pain is the worst, my dad has suffered from it for years. I hope the physical therapist beings some relief.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Thanks, it really is. I tend to forget that when I'm okay, but it sucks. I hope he will at least grand me my wish and give me a massage. Those therapists usually want the patient to do all the work. *crosses fingers*

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

Oh, you poor thing! Of course you're allowed to whine!
If push comes to shove, I bet you could convince your mother into painting the living room for you, heh :P.
But hey, there may be a massage to look forward to!

*continues writing the thesis adding to recs list*

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Yay thanks, but I think I'm done for now;)

Dude, my mom already took my laundry and brought it back all clean and fluffy and folded. I wouldn't dare ask her to help with the paintjob. I really want to do that myself;)

Oh, there has to be a massage. Or the whining will continue.