I promise not to try not to fuck with your mind

[beelikej]

Thank you, everybody who was there to offer support in the past week. I really appreciate it.

As for the subject of my personal struggles:
I've had long talks with my mom and with BFF Oscar.
Apparently I'm in love.


Oh.


Fuck.

Comments

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Oh dear!

What now?

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

*whines* I don't know. And the wise people who gave me the verdict didn't have any answers either. Very helpful those two.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

Fire them!

[sillie]

Ohoh...

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Indeed. Wat heb nou aan die twee. Als ze me nou zeiden wat ik er aan kon doen. Maar nee. Wel een mening, geen oplossing. Tsss. I think I'm gonna hide in my bunk. Under the covers. Until it goes away.

[fred-bear.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I hope you can sort things out and resolve what you need to. To quote Adam Sandler and the Wedding Singer - "love stinks", well, a lot of the time anyway.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

That song really sums it up. I so don't want to feel like this. *grumble*

[chemfishee.livejournal.com]

(I've been trying to catch up with what's going on today.)

Is there celebrating or confusion? Or both?

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Hey, hi! There is a lot of confusion and selfhating for being this weak. I do not care for other people, dammit. So I'm hoping for it to go away or for the oracles to be totally wrong. Who needs all these feelings anyway. Hrmpf.

[chemfishee.livejournal.com]

But it could be fun! Think of it as an adventure.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

With who???

Whom?

Who. Whatever.

Oh dears.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Oh, so not going to disclose that information. It's bad enough my inner woobie felt the need to post about it. As soon as I know how, I will kick it out of my head and go back to being cynical J again.

[rispacooper.livejournal.com]

I just meant that you've never even mentioned a person on here so it was...just...

Why kick it out of your head? Even if you don't do anything about it, just the feeling can be nice.

If you like rollercoasters.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Actually I may have mentioned something between the lines before, but if you missed it, that's all the better;)

But that's just it: I don't feel nice, because I don't feel like me. I never quite got the attraction of rollercoasters (even if you do get more out of it than the merry-go-round)

[kennedy-unknown.livejournal.com]

I second Chem. Love is a bizarre emotion, but a necessary one, whatever level it is on.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

No. Do not need this. *shakes head furiously* I don't feel like myself when I'm this needy for attention - or whatever. It's like being in Bizarro World.