I feel so different.
Aug. 2nd, 2010 04:49 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beelikejUgh. My period started later than anticipated. Now it looks like my few days in London aren't going to be as hassle-free as I had hoped. Oh well. I can deal. After all that's something you learn to do as a woman.
I am however not quite used to how my body has been acting for the last few months. Where did my pms go? >:-[
For the past 25 years my body has been asking a lot of attention every month. My period would be announced by a week filled with very painful pms symtoms, such as backpain, headaches, nausea, swollen breasts -that fucking hurt- and the shakes (scary).
The past two months I had no pain whatsoever. I would feel the ovulation (pang!), so I knew my body was still on a regular cycle, but after that: nothing! Just two weeks of peace and quiet until -surprise!- the bleeding.
It feels like something's missing. It's nice to not suffer through that monthly misery, but pms has been such a big part of my life for so long that I just don't feel like myself. Where do I go now with all my pent up frustrations and anger? Should I just randomly have a temper tantrum? It really feels like part of my personality is gone.
And yes, I think it has something to do with my age. Which I would get very upset about, if my hormones would be raging. Is this what they call The Change? I don't like it. I feel a little numb.
The one thing that hasn't changed though: I'm still annoyingly clumsy these days. I can't even count the amount of things I dropped today. So it's going to be exciting to fill up a vial with my favorite Bpal scent for my trip.
Happy thoughts now: I'm going to London, people! As usual traveling means that I willtry to stay away from the internet (I can totally do that) and I'm sure you all will miss my daily vacation updates *grins*. Feel free to leave me comments on any of my previous posts, such as my BigBang artwork or my bookreviews;)
I hope I will have plenty to post about when I get back (I have a date with Jeff Goldblum on Wednesday, wahey!)
*waves*
ETA: Oh and I packed my e-reader, uploaded with a couple of BigBangs and other fanfiction, so maybe I'll have some more ficrecs when I return:)
I am however not quite used to how my body has been acting for the last few months. Where did my pms go? >:-[
For the past 25 years my body has been asking a lot of attention every month. My period would be announced by a week filled with very painful pms symtoms, such as backpain, headaches, nausea, swollen breasts -that fucking hurt- and the shakes (scary).
The past two months I had no pain whatsoever. I would feel the ovulation (pang!), so I knew my body was still on a regular cycle, but after that: nothing! Just two weeks of peace and quiet until -surprise!- the bleeding.
It feels like something's missing. It's nice to not suffer through that monthly misery, but pms has been such a big part of my life for so long that I just don't feel like myself. Where do I go now with all my pent up frustrations and anger? Should I just randomly have a temper tantrum? It really feels like part of my personality is gone.
And yes, I think it has something to do with my age. Which I would get very upset about, if my hormones would be raging. Is this what they call The Change? I don't like it. I feel a little numb.
The one thing that hasn't changed though: I'm still annoyingly clumsy these days. I can't even count the amount of things I dropped today. So it's going to be exciting to fill up a vial with my favorite Bpal scent for my trip.
Happy thoughts now: I'm going to London, people! As usual traveling means that I will
I hope I will have plenty to post about when I get back (I have a date with Jeff Goldblum on Wednesday, wahey!)
*waves*
ETA: Oh and I packed my e-reader, uploaded with a couple of BigBangs and other fanfiction, so maybe I'll have some more ficrecs when I return:)