I feel so different.

[beelikej]

Ugh. My period started later than anticipated. Now it looks like my few days in London aren't going to be as hassle-free as I had hoped. Oh well. I can deal. After all that's something you learn to do as a woman.
I am however not quite used to how my body has been acting for the last few months. Where did my pms go? >:-[

For the past 25 years my body has been asking a lot of attention every month. My period would be announced by a week filled with very painful pms symtoms, such as backpain, headaches, nausea, swollen breasts -that fucking hurt- and the shakes (scary).
The past two months I had no pain whatsoever. I would feel the ovulation (pang!), so I knew my body was still on a regular cycle, but after that: nothing! Just two weeks of peace and quiet until -surprise!- the bleeding.
It feels like something's missing. It's nice to not suffer through that monthly misery, but pms has been such a big part of my life for so long that I just don't feel like myself. Where do I go now with all my pent up frustrations and anger? Should I just randomly have a temper tantrum? It really feels like part of my personality is gone.
And yes, I think it has something to do with my age. Which I would get very upset about, if my hormones would be raging. Is this what they call The Change? I don't like it. I feel a little numb.

The one thing that hasn't changed though: I'm still annoyingly clumsy these days. I can't even count the amount of things I dropped today. So it's going to be exciting to fill up a vial with my favorite Bpal scent for my trip.

Happy thoughts now: I'm going to London, people! As usual traveling means that I will try to stay away from the internet (I can totally do that) and I'm sure you all will miss my daily vacation updates *grins*. Feel free to leave me comments on any of my previous posts, such as my BigBang artwork or my bookreviews;)

I hope I will have plenty to post about when I get back (I have a date with Jeff Goldblum on Wednesday, wahey!)

*waves*

ETA: Oh and I packed my e-reader, uploaded with a couple of BigBangs and other fanfiction, so maybe I'll have some more ficrecs when I return:)

Comments

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

I would think the lack of pain is a good thing, but I totally get you. I think it's how it's with me if I have an unusually long migraine free period (like I posted a bout a while ago when I went 15 days without a migraine...). I don't mind not having the pain, but it's not me! It's something wrong (or people would say something not wrong) and I cannot completely explain why it makes me nervous or antsy when things change for seemingly no reason.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Oh, it definitely is a good thing to not have all that drama and hurt, but I just don't know who I am anymore. Plus the lack of pms makes me lose track of time, no matter how regular my period is, it just comes as a surprise when there is no pain beforehand;) It's true what they say about time flying when you're having fun.

[bflyw.livejournal.com]

Oh.. and... YAY - LONDON!
Seems like *everyone* is in London now (3 ppl from JIB just met up in London this weekend....) and I wish I was there as well!
I love London!
Have a good time! Enjoy Lush for me if you are into those kind of shops (I cannot go there, it triggers my migraines, so I need someone else to enjoy it for me).


... and Jeff Goldblum - sexy! The look!!! Enjoy!

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Yay indeed\o/ Lush is on the shoppinglist for at least one of my bath-nights: I plan to soak and read every evening :-) Such a luxury since I only have a measly shower at home.

[tanisafan.livejournal.com]

I had that 'huh, where did all my woes go?' feeling when I went on the pill, because it got rid of the crying and the pain and the fainting etc. And now I'm off the pill again because I am forgetful and kept skipping days, which is unhealthy, but once a month I'm sadly back to 'omg kill me kill me kill me'. Not cool, I'm not sure what the right decision is.

Eeeeh so jealous of your London trip. Have an excellent time! Om nom nom, Jeff Goldblum... *is jealous*

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

I was on the pill for a couple of years, mainly because of all the traveling (I didn't know my period was regular as clockwork all by itself). I decided to stop taking it, because I wanted to feel like a natural woman. (Yeah, not as awesome as that song implies;) Last couple of years I relied on ibuprofen for painrelief.

My co-worker who also had massive problems is wild about the IUD with progestogen; it reduced all her pms and period related woe, both physically and emotionally. Maybe that's worth looking into?

LONDON \o/ I'm packed and only have the dirty dishes left on my to-do list. I will do them after I had my last dose of fanfic. *sits back and relaxes*