Not just the weather

[beelikej]

This morning I sat down to calculate and I figured out my period is over a week late! This has never ever happened in all of my 25 odd years of dealing with this ovulating-business. WHAT THE FUCK. I guess this is why I've been so uncomfortable with my body and why I've been feeling so very unhappy these past few days. I suspect it just skipped a month, but could it possibly be the start of menopause? I don't really mind, but it would be nice to get a memo or some sort of timeline, so I am prepared and not feel so out of touch with my body.

Speaking of that; those of you who have been following this journal for a while may remember my issues with the bra in the last couple of years. I'm proud to say I now feel secure enough to venture out in the clothes-department and I am experimenting with shirts which are a little more low cut than regular T-shirts. It's probably not noticable for most people, but *whispers* I've got some cleavage showing. Eeep.
Besides trying to deal with being aware of my breasts all the time this also caused another problem... it took me three days to realise I had to button up my blouse to avoid getting crumbs in my cleavage at lunchtime. Live and learn.

Ironic, isn't it, that now I'm finally accepting myself as a woman, the one thing that defined that status to me all these years seems to be fading itself out. Huh.

Comments

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

One of my sisters started menopausal symptoms in her very early 40's. My mom was period free at 46. Many others still have their cycle active well into their 50's, even early 60's. What I'm trying (badly) to say is that every woman is unique. Your experience will be unique to you.

The changes we all face as we grow and mature in no way detract from our "womanliness". Most of the post-menopausal women that I speak to have found the lack of a period liberating.

Whatever the future holds in that regard for you know that you have a listening ear near by any time you want one! Hugs to you.

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Thanks for commenting, I apologize in advance if the response below is TMI;) *hugs*

I wouldn't be surprised nor sad if it was menopause, it would just be nice to know for sure;) My period-experience is very different from my mom's and since she had a histerectomy she kind of skipped menopause. I think her mother had the same amount of monthly suffering as I do, but we never discussed it and I have no reference in the rest of my family.
I don't expect any issues of me feeling any 'less of a woman' as they say (whatever they mean by that, I always cringe when I hear that expression) As far as the symptoms go: a lot of those already come with my period (hot flashes even) so I think I too will feel mostly liberated if that's over.

[rabidfan.livejournal.com]

As I'm coming closer to 40 I'm hoping my own experiences will mirror my sister and mothers. I'd be really glad to see it end! I'm not sure about any symptoms...no one had any to speak of tho my mom is already crazy so any difference wouldn't be noted...but I think they would be easier to take in the short haul!

[albeitslowly.livejournal.com]

LOL, your facial expression just makes me grin. Sorry about the rest. I am thousands of miles away from my mom or any women with whom I would discuss menopause, so I can't even say what that's like. I know my grandma was into her fifties and still bitching that she got her period every frickin' month. LOL. Grass is greener, eh?

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

:-) I really could do without the periods, so I'm with your grandma on that issue;) I just wish it wasn't a matter of guessing what the fuck is going on. Oh well.

[geminigalaxy.livejournal.com]

Lovely view! :)

[beelikej.livejournal.com]

Thank you kindly *curtsies* :)