I need a hug (and a new job)
Mar. 30th, 2012 03:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beelikejBit of a bad day yesterday. The bossman called me into his office for a serious talk. I was told my job will be cut down to 16 hours as part of over all downsizing. I've been working here full time since 1996, right after graduation; I met the bossman at my internship and was the first outside person he hired for his family-business.
Obviously this will have consequences for my financial situation, but that is not my main concern at the moment. I feel very betrayed and even though the bossman can conveniently blame part of this situation on the 'economy', I'm not completely convinced this is the only or the best solution to get the company back on track. That's why I'm contesting the decision, which means he has to start an official procedure and there will be an investigation before the cut down will be in effect. I have at least three months left in my current position. I'm not looking forward to the hassle of the procedure, the paperwork and applying for partial benefits or an additional parttime job. I don't deal well with change.
My job is my life and I feel like a big part of my identity is taken away from me.
My first impulse was to run to my mum, but she's currently on vacation on the other side of the world together with brotherdearest, who would be the next person in line for hugs. Even though I didn't want to bother/burden them, I was glad I managed to chat with them last night. That took the sting out of it a little.
Yesterday evening my neighbour came over with food and together we watched two Torchwoods up in the attic. That was a nice distraction and good fun.
This morning reality hit me in the face again and in between work I've been gathering information on my options. Whatever happens, the next few months are gonna be rough.
I haven't had a major melt down yet, but no doubt that will happen as soon as I am home alone with nothing left to do tonight and a whole weekend to think things over.
Right. Back to work. Better enjoy it while I can.
Obviously this will have consequences for my financial situation, but that is not my main concern at the moment. I feel very betrayed and even though the bossman can conveniently blame part of this situation on the 'economy', I'm not completely convinced this is the only or the best solution to get the company back on track. That's why I'm contesting the decision, which means he has to start an official procedure and there will be an investigation before the cut down will be in effect. I have at least three months left in my current position. I'm not looking forward to the hassle of the procedure, the paperwork and applying for partial benefits or an additional parttime job. I don't deal well with change.
My job is my life and I feel like a big part of my identity is taken away from me.
My first impulse was to run to my mum, but she's currently on vacation on the other side of the world together with brotherdearest, who would be the next person in line for hugs. Even though I didn't want to bother/burden them, I was glad I managed to chat with them last night. That took the sting out of it a little.
Yesterday evening my neighbour came over with food and together we watched two Torchwoods up in the attic. That was a nice distraction and good fun.
This morning reality hit me in the face again and in between work I've been gathering information on my options. Whatever happens, the next few months are gonna be rough.
I haven't had a major melt down yet, but no doubt that will happen as soon as I am home alone with nothing left to do tonight and a whole weekend to think things over.
Right. Back to work. Better enjoy it while I can.
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Date: 2012-03-30 01:16 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-03-31 07:38 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-03-30 03:08 pm (UTC)This sucks - big time! That is a massive cut down in working hours, and that cannot be easy. Being put in that situation can not be easy. I wish there was something I could do to help you.... However, I have no job to offer you, and not am I any good at kicking anyone's ass. I can only lend an ear, so feel free to pour out your frustrations whenever you need!
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Date: 2012-03-31 07:39 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2012-03-30 03:52 pm (UTC)I'm glad that you've begun to review your options. The sooner you get things in place the sooner you will be more comfortable with change. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in the hope that it eases you at least a little.
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Date: 2012-03-31 07:43 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2012-03-30 09:40 pm (UTC)I can relate to this sort of betrayal, as you know, and I wish I was there to give you a real hug instead of virtual one. It's never easy when something like this happens.
I'm thinking of you and sending lots of positive thoughts your way.
♥
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Date: 2012-03-31 07:46 pm (UTC)Thanks for being here.
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